Well, I don’t really know how to start this post, I have never written this type of post before.
This Marriage Monday post is certainly not what I had scheduled, and I write it with the heaviest heart and just a heartbroken heart.
Our darling boy, Trooper has passed away.
He was only eight months old, was such a bright boy and had so much potential.
While he loved me, he was his Daddy’s little man and his pride and joy.
This is the first encounter of this kind Samuel and I have had as a married couple – and it is definitely not easy.
Our fur babies we like to more call our “fur children”, and so it is like we lost our child, and to us we did.
Being married and dealing with grief is something I hadn’t previously thought about – I had seen my parents deal with it some, but parents normally protect their children from seeing their grief and to be honest I didn’t know how to handle this at first.
Grief in marriage is something of a different encounter, especially if you deal with it differently than one another.
Not only are you grieving, but so is your spouse – so you also have to help console them as well.
It is snowing today – it would have been his “first snow” with us.
Today we hold our babies funeral, in the soft falling snow and white everywhere. It will be beautiful and saddening, but we pray for God’s help and hope for a new beginning.
Adeline is dealing with it in her own way – she lost a brother. She snuggled with me all night, wrapped up like a human in our covers and slept with her head on my pillow. Being married and dealing with grief also means giving the other person space if they need it – compromise. It is especially hard at this time, but sometimes it is needed.
I can see Trooper running in Heaven right now – happy as can be.
This is a short post, but all I have in me right now.
I know that everyone was excited for Wedding Tuesdays, and they will go on as planned.
At this time please be gentle with any comments or questions, and we would appreciate your prayers.
R.I.P ~ Trooper N